A friend I greatly respect, recently reminded me: “In the process of time, seconds will turn into minutes into hours into days into weeks, into months, and years and you will look back and THEN, you will have the beginning, the middle and the end of the journey of grief.”
I pray my journey of faith, loose and grief will help others on this same road navigate such a journey and find their peace in our Abba Father. Today, whilst still so raw, Rio, Sam, Storm, Dallas & I including our family, friends, EWHAL & co workers enter into five months of absence of Shane in our lives, since his sudden passing & the trauma of his silent illness in the preceding months which turned out to be aggressive cancer.
To me he was not only my husband, lover, friend & father to our beautiful children but my mentor in all things spiritual & a bold, dynamic teacher of the scripture. He was a great warrior for Yahuah in these prophetic times we live. Indeed many of you recognized the same spirit / ruach in him and you still say “the spirit of his teaching, the delivery of his passion” is alive in you today & spurs you on.
Shane loved talking about David and the boy David fighting Goliath and as the same friend pointed out to me, “As Shane spoke, he added something like this, David thought to himself, ” I’ll only need one stone for this…” That hit me like a ton of bricks. The sheer, unassuming confidence of this young man who faced what the world would see as an insurmountable, terrifying threat that all but one would run from.
This is how Shane combated fear and every battle both spiritual & physical through out his life. He taught me how to endure, something that defines this process of grieve my family & I now find ourselves having to face. Shane would speak the hard things of Yah and expose darkness, dedicating his life as a watchmen which is why we have inscribed on his headstone: “Yahuah has sought him a man after his own heart. SHEMU’EL RI’SHON (1 SAMUEL) 13:14 את CEPHER”
Here is a photo back in 1989 when he was selected out of hundreds of candidates to become one the first British Guardian Angels: ‘an unarmed crime prevention patrol’ on the London Underground. All the way back then, he used his life and warrior spirit to save peoples lives not only with physical prevention but sharing his faith & the gospel to minister to the heart of their souls.
Shane was a incredible man and a fighter to the end both physically and spiritually, in spite of the aggressive nature of the disease that took his life and the shock of losing Shane is still hard to deal with today. He and our family never waivered in faith for healing despite the odds advised against us. We witnessed Shane’s life extended by days and hours, which renewed our fight to “keep on keeping on,” as Shane would say, yet I know this was my Shane’s appointed time unto death.
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Much love & thanks Jessica Knock
More of our story & testimony to follow shortly. (Photo of Shane (right) with founder and fellow guardian angel)
